I am a man who is afraid.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I am fearful.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I know that the righteous are as bold as lions<\/p>\n\n\n\n
But I am a fearful man.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I am terrified by a few things,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And I cannot have peace once I consider these things.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
What are my deepest fears?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I am afraid that unwittingly, I could become an offense to God.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I know that without His blessings on me,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I am totally useless,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And I fear that unknowingly, I may be making God unhappy.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
This is my greatest sorrow and fear.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
There are many things I know that offend God<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And I fear to see myself still indulge in such things.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
This I know will doom my life to irrelevance in His Kimgdom<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And possibly cost me more than I can imagine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I don\u2019t want to live a life displeasing to God<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And my greatest fear is continuing to live such a life.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
If my life and actions break God\u2019s heart,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Then I am a most wretched man indeed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Most useless and most unworthy.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
My second greatest fear is allowing my Self and Flesh to rule me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I know how easily I succumb to the enticements of the old nature<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And how easily I permit my life to wander away from the narrow path.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I am not talking of living in sin,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
But allowing fleshly earthy desire to drive me and dictate my steps.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I know myself at least a little bit,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And I know that I wander away quite often,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And this explain why I am still below my full capacity.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Smallness and selfishness and idleness and myopia are a few traps around,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And these chains keep me away from experiencing the fullness of God.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
These chains restrict and restrain me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And leave me in shame and pitiful living.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Self is a wicked thing and it drains and empties your life.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Living in self is condemning yourself to shallow unfulfilled living.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Self kills love and kindness and generosity.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Self only thinks of itself and damns everyone and everything else.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Self is also an eyesore before God.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
My third greatest fear is living below my potential.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I know God has deposited so much in me and expects so much,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And one of my greatest fears is living below installed capacity.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I knows there is more,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I know I am built for me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I know God expects more.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So why settle for less?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I don\u2019t want to die without having delivered my full potential on earth.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I don\u2019t want to go to heaven with talents and graces unused within me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I fear for this.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I am fighting against this.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Those who don\u2019t understand me think I am a slave drive,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
But I am not a slave driver.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I am just a restless man who knows that there\u2019s more in God,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And if I live fully in God, then He will work wonders through me,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
To His glory and praise.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So why accept less than the wonderful works of God working through me?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Why accept less?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Why?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
One of my greatest fears and failures,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Is accepting to operate below God\u2019s expectations for my life.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I want to walk in love, not just spiritual gifts.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I want to impact lives, not just do ministry.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I want to see communities transformed not just saved.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I know that all this can only happen through and by God.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I don\u2019t want to do anything in my own strength.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It is foolishness to think I can achieve without God.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Failure is seeking to do what is not doable without the help of God.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
All my fears are drowned when I am drowned in God.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am my dreams are released when my spirit is released to God.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So don\u2019t settle for less.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Go the whole way.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Seek the full and daily infilling of the Holy Spirit and let Him guide you.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Let Him fill you with His power and potential.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Through Him, let all smallness and self-centeredness be destroyed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Let my spirit soar and rise to serve and love and give.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
By Him, let all the fortresses of Satan around me melt like wax.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
My fears are real,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
But they lose power when I live the soaked and incubated life.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So how must I overcome my fears?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
By living within the confines and ambit of God,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Refusing the enticements to play outside.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Stay simple.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Stay focused.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Stay confined in Christ\u2026and your fears will have no life or power over you.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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