I am a man who is afraid.

I am fearful.

I know that the righteous are as bold as lions

But I am a fearful man.

I am terrified by a few things,

And I cannot have peace once I consider these things.

What are my deepest fears?

I am afraid that unwittingly, I could become an offense to God.

I know that without His blessings on me,

I am totally useless,

And I fear that unknowingly, I may be making God unhappy.

This is my greatest sorrow and fear.

There are many things I know that offend God

And I fear to see myself still indulge in such things.

This I know will doom my life to irrelevance in His Kimgdom

And possibly cost me more than I can imagine.

I don’t want to live a life displeasing to God

And my greatest fear is continuing to live such a life.

If my life and actions break God’s heart,

Then I am a most wretched man indeed.

Most useless and most unworthy.

My second greatest fear is allowing my Self and Flesh to rule me.

I know how easily I succumb to the enticements of the old nature

And how easily I permit my life to wander away from the narrow path.

I am not talking of living in sin,

But allowing fleshly earthy desire to drive me and dictate my steps.

I know myself at least a little bit,

And I know that I wander away quite often,

And this explain why I am still below my full capacity.

Smallness and selfishness and idleness and myopia are a few traps around,

And these chains keep me away from experiencing the fullness of God.

These chains restrict and restrain me.

And leave me in shame and pitiful living.

Self is a wicked thing and it drains and empties your life.

Living in self is condemning yourself to shallow unfulfilled living.

Self kills love and kindness and generosity.

Self only thinks of itself and damns everyone and everything else.

Self is also an eyesore before God.

My third greatest fear is living below my potential.

I know God has deposited so much in me and expects so much,

And one of my greatest fears is living below installed capacity.

I knows there is more,

I know I am built for me.

I know God expects more.

So why settle for less?

I don’t want to die without having delivered my full potential on earth.

I don’t want to go to heaven with talents and graces unused within me.

I fear for this.

I am fighting against this.

Those who don’t understand me think I am a slave drive,

But I am not a slave driver.

I am just a restless man who knows that there’s more in God,

And if I live fully in God, then He will work wonders through me,

To His glory and praise.

So why accept less than the wonderful works of God working through me?

Why accept less?

Why?

One of my greatest fears and failures,

Is accepting to operate below God’s expectations for my life.

I want to walk in love, not just spiritual gifts.

I want to impact lives, not just do ministry.

I want to see communities transformed not just saved.

I know that all this can only happen through and by God.

I don’t want to do anything in my own strength.

It is foolishness to think I can achieve without God.

Failure is seeking to do what is not doable without the help of God.

All my fears are drowned when I am drowned in God.

Am my dreams are released when my spirit is released to God.

So don’t settle for less.

Go the whole way.

Seek the full and daily infilling of the Holy Spirit and let Him guide you.

Let Him fill you with His power and potential.

Through Him, let all smallness and self-centeredness be destroyed.

Let my spirit soar and rise to serve and love and give.

By Him, let all the fortresses of Satan around me melt like wax.

My fears are real,

But they lose power when I live the soaked and incubated life.

So how must I overcome my fears?

By living within the confines and ambit of God,

Refusing the enticements to play outside.

Stay simple.

Stay focused.

Stay confined in Christ…and your fears will have no life or power over you.