My biggest problem in life is me!

My biggest headaches do not come from outside:

It’s not Satan, it’s not people, it’s not society.

My biggest distraction come from within,

And that’s why my battles are so fierce.

I have discovered that I do not easily follow what I know is right.

I have learnt to avoid the big sin issues,

But I struggle in the finer points of consecration.

For example, I am easily prone to sleep when I should pray.

While this may seem a slim distraction to some,

For me, this is a major source of my spiritual bankruptcy.

I find that I allow my desire for food erode my need to fast.

And with the lack of disciplined fasting comes spiritual impotence.

My greatest problem is me.

I know where God wants me to get to but I distract myself.

I talk when I should be silent.

I seek for company when I should practice isolation.

I play with my phone when I should be studying the Word.

And as these things multiply, spiritual energy evaporates.

I am my own distraction.

When I should bury myself in writing,

I am watching movies or listening to music:

(Even good music and movies are distractions that I wrongly permit).

Satan is not my problem because he can only go as far as I permit.

People are not my problem because I must permit them in first.

Gadgets are not my problem because gadgets depend on my usage.

My biggest problem is my lack of discipline to do right,

To do what is expected at the time expected,

To stay faithful to obey God’s inner voice.

All the powers of the last days cannot overcome me if I live right.

No force of hell can overpower me once I have my priorities right.

I know I can have an amazing impact on my world if God rules me fully.

But I am weak and frail and on the periphery of life,

Because I have succumbed to myself.

“O God, deliver me from myself.

Deliver me from the inner distractions that keep me busy.

If only your power will overrule my internal weaknesses,

I know that You will shake my world through me.

For this reason, I ask You to invade my inner being.

Invade and override me from within.

Let the fullness of Your nature consume me on the inside.

Then, these little foxes will be totally extinguished,

And I will rise to be all You made me to be.

This I earnestly ask You to do for me,

In Jesus name. Amen.”