‘Am trembling as I write because I know very well the things You have been demanding that I give up, but I have sneaked around and escaped Your hands each time (or so I thought). My escapist attitudes explain why my cries for spiritual renewal have failed to happen and why I have become increasingly hedged in on all sides; being drawn further and further away into the deserts of nothingness; into the parched grounds of self-centeredness and aloneness. But I today come with full determination and under Your divine grace, to renounce altogether and in totality, my addictions. I abandon all addictions to certain vain possessions, primary of which are the addictions to certain physical pleasures, the bondage to the electronic media, the desires for recognition by men, and the promotion of my Self-ego by multiple ministry activities.
From these and other possessions of my old self, I ask for total deliverance and make a commitment to cooperate from today; knowing that the testing will surely come and that the obvious and painful struggle will ensue. However, I know that as I surrender to You, I will surely overcome and enter the full bliss of rediscovering God afresh; which is the deepest longing of my heart, a pleasure that no other earthly pleasure can compare with at all. Deliver me, Lord, I pray, in Jesus name. Amen.’